the drug
There are musicians who talk about a solo they’ve done and they have no idea where that came from. There are athletes who set world records and say, “I performed so far outside my abilities, I don’t know what that was.” It happens to writers, too. That’s the thing we’re all looking for. That’s the drug. Seeing your name on the Times list is such a pale, empty experience compared to that. You can’t even compare them.
